The Struggle of Roads...

Life just happens to be overwhelming for everyone at some point. How or when do when know that it has become too much to handle. With every mistake we make we learn but not enough to stop making mistakes. It seems to be a never ending circle. I am just getting to know who I am but how can I ever really know if I can not do what I want to. Somewhere deep inside all I want to do is travel and explore the world, because I find excitement in the idea of finding my life. I guess I'm a dreamer but if I wasn't one, there would be no inspiration or prowess to keep trying. The fact is I like the struggle, well not the struggle but the feeling of accomplishment a person gets after surpassing the struggle. There is so much left for me to discover and enjoy but I find myself stuck in park at the moment. So I want to be able to be back in drive, but the problem is which way to go. I'm stuck in the struggle of what society wants out of me which is to be chaotic and let loose, what my family wants, which is to set all my focus on school, and finally what I think I want, balance, balance between studying and acting like a fool but with someone by my side who cares, because whats the point of enjoying life if you have no one there to spend it with......